Things we never say.

I watched this video the other day:

I love how sassy and hilarious Kid President is, what a great motivator too

Although corn-dogs are horrific and should not be a thing.

Just as this video encourages us to say things more often, it's got me thinking more about the things we never really talk about or say.

And I wonder what it is that means we don't think it is appropriate  or relevant to speak about such things?

It seems to me that so much of our lives is spent trying to be 'ok.' To make sure you let people know that everything is ticking over ok, life is fine, let's move on. BUT how many times has someone said 'how are you?' and in reality you feel absolutely awful, but don't want to lump on them the bad stuff that is hanging over your head and in your mind?

What is the use of this 'happy front'? A protective defence or barrier?

In some ways I think it can be more destructive. 

It's tough but I think it's good to be honest and say when things aren't ok. Be open about it, isn't friendship meant to be a form of support and encouragement in many respects?

I guess what I'm trying to say is sometimes it is important to say the things we think are irrelevant/ scary/ awkward, whatever. Maybe it's worth the vulnerability sometimes to just be open and say it (obviously to the right person FYI). Life is fleeting and we all too easily forget that. Call me crazy or too 'touchy feely' but I think words mean something, and to say what you really mean is a strength and shouldn't be brushed off as cheesy.

In the light of that, a few instances this week have almost been more than I could handle. Heartache, worry and fear have reared their ugly heads. But in some divine intervention, I've also been blessed with immense joy, hilarity and laughter. Kind actions and words, that could have gone unsaid have meant an awful lot. 

I am starting to believe that we should start saying the things our hearts tell us to, but our bargaining 'mind conversation' tell us not to. That it's too risky or too silly. I know I've missed out on many opportunities to say things. This week, I was completely floored by a situation and should have worked up the guts to say something  important to a friend in need, but I didn't and I completely regret not saying it in the moment.

I recently read this poem.  I can totally understand why people think love poems like this can be really cheesy and awkward sometimes. But for some reason I really like how intimate, raw and beautiful a poem like this is. I'll leave it to you to decide what you think.

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in

my heart)i am never without it(anywhere

i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done

by only me is your doing,my darling)

                                                      i fear

no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want

no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

- E. E. Cummings

Maybe this week, say something you don't normally say.  Actively appreciate people this week.