But actually I don't LOVE either of these things, I mean, that's a pretty big emotion to attach to people I've never met! And if you turn to real life situations, I'm not so hot on the 'I love yous' to many people on a day to day basis. I was speaking to my friend Charli about it, because I have some great friends in Oxford or at home who after we say goodbye on the phone will say 'love you' or 'I love you' but it's weird for me because I just can't say it back.
And I feel bad because instead I do the awkward, 'you too,' 'lots of love,' ' um, thanks, bye' or 'take care' instead. It's not because I don't care for you lots or maybe do even love you as a friend (just to clarify), but for me those three words are too often flung around and their meaning is constantly weakened by the increased frequency with which they're said.
'I love you.'
That's a pretty big thing to say to someone in my opinion. And I do feel that way for some people, but I don't 'sign off' with it on the phone or in texts. I don't even say it to my family on the phone (to be fair, if I did it to my Pa, he'd probably just be like me- 'um, thanks?!').
I'm not really sure what I'm trying to get at here, but I guess it's just trying to be more intentional in the language we use and a little apology from me if I haven't said 'love you too' or used the classic 'ily/luv u' (cringe) in a text!
FYI- I'll probs say it to you or write it in a card to you if I really mean it.
Anyway, relating to the title of this blogpost, I've been picking up on a few things that I do LOVE at the moment...
1. John Mayer- well not him (ok, maybe the idea of him) but his music. I can't stop playing this at the moment.
2. My dog Benji. (As in for reals I am declaring actual love for him.)
He insisted on uploading a selfie and one where he looked like he was 'working out', apologies.
3. Road trips. Boyd, Alex and me are heading on a trip together this weekend to go surfing in Cornwall. Forever the three musketeers.
4. Nina. One of the 'girls.' She is coming back from spending 6 months in Australia on Friday and I can't wait! We'll all be reunited on Monday, the first time since February. I cannot wait!
We also recently realised we're all brunettes. It's weird, I have very few blonde friends...
So I'm not going to say 'love you all' or 'lots of love,' apart from you Nana (because I know you as my most avid reader), but I'll try and be less awkward with my sign offs.
For now though, a few of my favourites:
Keep it real!
Stay safe.
Peace out homie.
Live the dream!
Keep doing... what you're doing.
XOXO Gossip girl.
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