Strong- in sickness and in health.

Hey there.

I'm writing this from bed, snuggled up because I'm ill. Sad times. In the past couple of days I've slept a crazy amount. And unfortunately, I get this recurring illness when I'm run down/sick - nothing awful, more just frustrating. And what I find so annoying is that I feel pretty useless and weak. Which is something I really dislike. 

I strive to be someone who is strong and independent. Much like Destiny's Child - Independent Women (you know you love it). It probably explains why I love artists like Beyonce, P!nk and Kelly Clarkson- their music just makes them seem so sassy and strong.

So feeling weak and not being able to go for a run, or do simple things like walk the dog, is frustrating. And I wonder, what is it that makes us strong? There are so many different ways to measure strength. Is it that you have conquered most of your fears, or that you fear less things? Is it being able to do everything on your own? Or being strong enough to let people in when you think you need help?

I think we can determine the definition of strength in relation to who we are. 

For me, I think it can entail knowing the things I'm afraid of...and doing them anyway (well as much as possible!) 

This evening I watched my Ma pick up a mahoosive spider in her bare hands and put it out the front door. I literally did not know what to do with myself. My mum the strongest woman I know, and not just because of her knack of dealing really well with creepy crawlies...

Yet as much as I try to be a strong, independent woman who is confident and courageous, sometimes I fail and sometimes I have to give in. Give in to being vulnerable, give in when my body says 'Chill out, take a nap!' And actually, that's ok too. I think being strong and independent isn't just about doing all things independently, it's about being able to accept that you can't do things all on your own. That actually you need a break sometimes. So although being ill sucks, it has also been kind of good in a way. I've been forced to switch off, and do nothing.

So until I get better I'll have to deal with lounging about at home (it's a hard life). But for a little inspiration, here's something I like to challenge myself with when I'm in 'independent/strong' mode: